Hurt.......

I hurt.

I did something stupid and now I'm hurt. Horribly hurt. Why am I so hurt? I knew he says bad things about me. I shouldn't find it shocking, but I guess reading it is something different. Reading him trying to flirt with an old flame is painful.

I thought we were finally getting somewhere. I thought he was turning a corner. Was it all a ruse to crush me further? It worked.

I'm again reminded that I'm overweight. Painfully so. I'm reminded that he would be happier if I was thinner. Fine. I'll get thinner and walk super fast elsewhere.

Point to him...

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