Carol's corner

As it hits the fan is never easy. We had a nasty blow out on Saturday evening. I'm still trying to recover. My whole body is achy from tension. On the up swing, my house is cleaner now that there isn't so much stuff in it...sigh...

I'm home from my monthly appointment. All is well, my baby is doing freakin great! Good strong heartbeat, measuring large but that's no shocker based on my other two, all the bloodwork and the NT scan came back perfect. Hopefully I'll stop having nightmares now? They usually involve something horrid happening to this baby in utero. I think maybe it's my guilt about this one not being planned. We waited two years almost for Gillian, with Eric he was extremely wanted but a year early, this one, while an amazing story of conception/survival, I wonder how it will feel knowing that we were taking all possible measures to avoid another baby. I'll love this one as much if not more than my others, but still, how will it feel? Anyway, I'm off to have a nap hopefully, I'm just so burnt out from last weeks running around and all the work in my home.....I'll take advantage of the time away from G & E. Next appointment with the doc, June 20th.

LOL!!! Started at 8 on the nose this morning. I currently have a bunch of hot young men out in my laundry room installing the tankless waterheater...mmmmmmmmmmmm....... Bo is gonna come back this afternoon as well, not sure what time but I need to ditch the kids so I can get some stuff done again today. Don't wanna leave with the hotties in the house so I think I'll call my mom and make her take them...truth? Just cause I don't wanna miss the hotties......LOL!!!! Okay done reporting for now, will snap a pic of the heater after it's all done...PRETTY!!!!!

Well I'm at sixteen weeks and was sitting here this morning sitting down drinking my first morning coffee and BAM! Kicked from the inside!!! I know it's been kicking for a while now but jeepers! I could not only feel it but I saw my belly move too! Gillian was sitting right next to me and laughed so hard.... I have to get some belly shots for the book that will need to be done for this one. Just think only four more weeks and I'll be half way AND probably know what it is...WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! On to the reno. I've got one partial wall downstairs...we have a problem with the windows on the one side and all the water comes rushing in. Need that fixed first before we can do much more. I've gotten the tankless water heater coming in tomorrow and I can't flippin wait! It's only about a foot deep and maybe a foot and a half long and it heats five gallons of water per minute! GAH!! Never to run out of hot water again!!!!!! All the garbage is gone from my ba...

Demo is underway and OMG I can't see my backyard anymore! The bin didn't show on the weekend so they tossed all the garbage on the back lawn. I'll head outside in a bit and take some during shots so that everyone can feel my pain. Everyone? Does anyone other than me even read this? LOL!!! Monday morning and the 7th of May, soon we go to the school to meet with the Teacher, excited and sad at the same time. I find myself just watching Gillian play lately and wonder where she came from. I mean I know she's my baby but she's just so big and it's so unreal still that I have a four year old.......gah what is gonna run through my head in another decade? What's up for this week, nothing that I know of, Bo said he's gonna try for three days a week at my house so we can get the ball rolling and get us downstairs before the new baby comes, that would be wonderful cause I can't see myself moving junk downstairs with a new baby in arms, not that it will be fun w...

LOL!! Demo hasn't even begun and yet here I am waiting and counting today as day one. The junk guys are coming over today and clearing out the basement and I'll toss in the front porch while they're here. Financing comes in Friday....YIPPEEEEEEE!!!! At this point I'm so damn motivated that I didn't even check through any boxes downstairs. I figure if I haven't needed it in the past five years I honestly don't need it now. Clean sweep is paying off! I've also settled myself down on the shopping front too. Slow it down and make informed choices and make sure we "need" it before I get it rather than just "OOOOOOOOH, I want that", maybe I'm finally growing up? GASP! Other than that, I'm just plumb tired. Supposed to be better by now, second trimester should be the energy trimester but nope, not yet. Kids are at the sitters so hopefully I'll get a quick nap in before I Have to go and get them back. Why oh why can't...

In the matter of minutes I went from seven something weeks to 12! I like that! Too bad the rest of it won't go that fast.....sigh.... The baby was swimming and kicking and waving at me during the ultrasound. Made me smile so much. Little heart was beating up a storm too. It's real. There is really a little one in there. I'm finally getting excited now. I wrote a letter to the baby this morning, I'll scrapbook it later with the pictures of the pee stick that I had to take..LOL. That should be a nice keepsake for the baby. I also went shopping today and got myself a cuttlebug and some embossing folders. I know I didn't need it and probably shouldn't have gotten it, but I deserve something nice every now and again, afterall I was at the store and only spent 3 dollars over my 25 dollar gift certificate and wouldn't have done that if it wasn't a stampapalooza day...ROFLMAO!!! Justify justify justify. Okay, off I go to get some more things done befor...

Finally got hold of the OB/GYN who did the tubal to book the ultrasound for dating...apparently I had one booked already on the 3rd of April......she told Peter.......ha ha ha....she said it's just like giving messages to her husband, they go into the great unheard. She didn't call me back with a new one, but at least I have her number and can now call and harrass all I want too. Here are my current monsters...see why I'm keeping this one?

Easter's over and everyone I need to tell now knows. Now I can be a sloth all I want and use my "but I'm pregnant" excuse.....LOL Unfortunately I'm so damn restless that I'm itching to get out of my house...sigh...need a second car, wait a second van would be better so daddy could (ha ha ha) take the kids out too...

That's approxamately where I am. Only six weeks in and already I'm done. I'm done with the all day queezy , sick of the all day tired and sick of all the horrid thoughts that go through your head. My sitter just told me that her good friends daughter just gave birth to a still born child. Was at the doctors on Monday, baby was fine and strong, Tuesday night, no movement, Wednesday morning in to the hospital and inducing labour, dead baby. OMG I would die myself. What makes a child in utero die at nine months? With only days left to go, what could possibly be wrong with the baby that all of a sudden caused it to pass? Breaks my heart to even consider it. Wouldn't that be my luck? To go through the torture of an unexpected pregnancy that seems to be destined to be (survived the pill and the tubal) only to have it expire so close to the end of the road....shudder to even consider.... Okay enough of the morbid thoughts...six weeks, that means about 13 to go before...

So today I go to my sleep specialist. An hour to get there on the bus, an hour and a half back, 2.75 each way...all for him to say,well, there's nothing else I can recommend for you right now. You're welcome to come back after your pregnancy.... Why is it that doctors think you have nothing better to do than waste the day on them? I'm still waiting for a good nights sleep, maybe one day I'll get one.

That there is never enough? Never enough time in the day to do all that needs to be done, never enough food in the fridge, never enough money in the bank... Why is it that right now I would kill for someone to come over and take my kids for a couple days so I could possibly find some more time and definitely more sleep. I need some stuff done around here, we got a quote done for the windows and geez that's gonna be a pretty penny...worth it in the long run but gah who has that sitting in the bank waiting for someone to spend? Still need to do the basement too, will have peeps doing that for us but will still need to pay the peeps too. Nothing is free. I'm just thankful that my peeps are friends and will do an awesome job, seen their work and have complete faith that things will be done right and done excellent. Now where is that lotto ticket with the winning numbers???

Well we survived the trip to Florida and all points in between. Met with some longtime friends that I've never met face to face before and that was awesome. Got there and back in one piece and with mom none the wiser about number 3 hiding. Now that we're set on this path, I'm freaking out. I can barely keep up with the two that I have without adding another to the mix. Not to mention the lack of space in our house...oh well, we'll have to make it work one way or another. Home and in desperate need of some space and some creativity, I need to make 12 cards for Saturday with either the Mothers Day theme or with a specific stamp set. I'll do the stamp set since I have those already....LOL Post when they're done of course.

My online friends know, and they're just as shocked as I am. Now for the couple of you who think it's funny to wish twins on my fat ass....I'll get you! I was unable to sleep last night and was laying there thinking up names, early I know. Allison Victoria was the front runner last time had E been a she...I like Nathan but Peter doesn't...LOL~ We have LOTS of time to decide. I'm getting more used to the idea of being a mom of three. Totally not looking forward to morning sickness again, but I think I can handle it. Now if only I can get off my ass and finish my son's blanket and start on the new one...

Well we've decided to keep this bugger. I guess there must be an important reason for this one to be here concidering the way we found it. I just hope that everything else goes as fast, already not looking forward to 40 weeks, but I can do it considering that I KNOW this one is my last. Maybe we should call it Mira if it's a girl.......ROFLMAO!

So I had my surgery yesterday. It was a surprise for sure. The doc's office called me on Monday and said can you do Friday? I said sure! Get it out of the way and then no more BCP or Condoms (EWWWWWWWWWWWWW). Get there yesterday morning and all goes well, they put me under and snip snip I'm an it...LOL!! Only thing is when they wake me up from the surgery they say, Oh by the way, you're pregnant.............WHAT?????? PARDON????? Um, I'm here so this shit wouldn't happen anymore........... Get home still in a state of shock and patiently wait for Peter to get here. We sit and talk and talk....he really gave me NOTHING in the way of directions...and gave me NOTHING at all for just having had major surgery and finding out about the biggest fricken suprise in my life...... Finally right before bed, he said to me that he would be with me 100% no matter which way I swing. That actually helped out a lot. Just knowing that he wouldn't hold it against me if I do choose ...

Stress call this morning at 4:30. I flipped and flopped like a fish out of water trying to get back to sleep. Finally gave up around 5 and came down and put the coffee on. Why wake the monkeys if I don't have to right? Did some quiet chores and then sat and knitted some more of my scarf. Boring, but enjoyable. Ran around with mom again today doing all kinds of last minute Florida stuff. Get the bottled water for the drive, get the gifts for the girls, etc. Fun but so exhausting when already tired. Such is life, it's Thursday, Sunday the times goes forward and I loose more sleep...LOL!! Oh well we're within a week of warm sun and possible tans....WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Gah I love my Bella's! Poor woman emailed me in a panic last night cause some freaks were slagging her babies on the SCS board. I mean, if you don't like it, fine you don't have to, but why oh why would you go online and say, "I don't like peas, anyone with me?" Cause that is basically what it boils down to. Trying to start trouble with the Bellajunkies that's for sure. I think Em needs to do a junkfoodbella (bag of chips or bowl of icecream) a beachbum bella (on a loungechair) and definately the fattiebellas in all their different forms. The lovely lady is known as Cosmobella. The watermark drink is by Penny Black and the saying is by Inky Antics. I know there aren't any fans of my blog, but I'll keep on posting anyway. Makes me feel better....LOL

It's soooooooooooo cold today that my furnace hasn't stopped working. It's -23 BEFORE the wind chill. BRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! And yes I had to go out today with BOTH kids in tow. Some moron actually asked me if it was cold outside while looking at my kids frozen faces and my beet red hands. Dorks... Anyway, I've done the tests, booked the appointment and am set to get fixed. I was a little down last night, said so to Peter and was given a shock that first, he didn't remember my making the appointment and second that he said he would do it and get it reversed if we change our minds. And here I thought he was dead set on no more. Oh well. We can't have anymore in this house anyway. Two bedrooms doesn't cut it for three kids...LOL!! Okay, I'm back to the blankets for a while. Thank goodness Florida is just over a week away.......PHEW!!!!!

I figure I should have at least one craft on this here blog... Meet Imeldabella. She is designed by one of the most talented women I've ever been fortunate to meet. http://www.stampingbella.com Emily is sooooooooo amazing that it's gross. Check out her blog too. Wicked funny. Anyway, she's stamped on Emily's special paper, coloured with prisma's and blended with Bella Spirits and mounted on DCWV patterened paper and cardstock. MWAH!!! Love ya Em!