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Goodbye my love

Once in a lifetime you are given a gift. Everyone has pets.  Everyone loves their pets.  Some are even lucky enough to have pets with such personality that they capture their hearts in such a way as to become not just pets but family. My pet, my cat, my child was so much more than that. My baby, my sweet sweet baby was so so much more. Sweet Smudge was a gift. I can clearly recall the call from a friend saying her cat Taya was giving birth and she was freaking out.  See Taya and Bobo were brother and sister and she didn't even know that Taya was pregnant.  There were three kittens and what was she supposed to do? I went over and there were three tiny balls of fluff.  One orange, one with Himalayan colouring, and one grey.  These tiny balls of fluff, so sweet. Days pass and she calls again.  The grey one's eyes aren't opening.  What should she do?  I tell her not to worry, I will take her.  I will take the poor sweet blind kitty.  I'll take her sister as we

Happy Easter!

It's funny how time can change people.  I've mostly severed contact as I said I would.  For my sanity and security as well as for my children.  They need to learn that abusive behaviour isn't cool and will not be allowed in our family.  Things are mostly quiet now because of the refusal of mine to reach out again and try to make it work as a family.  I will reach out and provide amounts for bills, I will reach out and provide transport to go grocery shopping or get hair cuts if I'm going anyway, but I'm no longer trying to facilitate family time for my kids an him.  Peace at last. Life goes on.  My new job is amazing and I love it.  I work hard and long and I'm comfortable in my jammies or track pants and I love it.  I find myself stretching my brain again and I enjoy stretching that particular muscle that I hadn't had to stretch and flex in so long.  My kids enjoy seeing me home every day.  I still go to the school some days to do their billing but not ev

New Year = New Me

2011 was a year from hell for me.  I was put through the ringer and I didn't like it.  I found out how hard a person can be pushed without snapping or breaking and I didn't like it. 2012 is going to be different for me. I have three little jobs that pay me barely enough to afford to feed the kids and some extras for fun.  It's tight but it's there.  I work long hours and I'm tired. This will change. I was offered a new position just before Christmas that hopefully will enable me to stay home with them again.  It's a work from home executive administrative position for a virtual company so there are no offices to go to. Hopefully there is enough funding available to enable me to walk completely away from the other positions mostly.  I want to stay with one position because I love it but we'll see. As always, my ex cracked and tanked himself over the holidays.  I give him the room to see the kids and he sinks his own battleship.  I have no idea anymo