Carol's corner

Time flies when you're sleep deprived huh? It's been almost two months since the littlest was born, she's a joy to us. Such a sweet little bundle of squirming. She got her tears about three weeks ago, first of the month or so, moved up to a size 2 diaper and is still in her 0-3 sizes. She's got the most beautiful blue eyes! I finally got my permatan blue eyed child. G had her first school play, Melton the warm hearted snowman. She was an Elf and OMG soooooooooo funny! She was the loudest and the clearest of the jk / sk class. Her teacher said that if it wasn't for her nobody would have heard them at all..... LOL ! I'm glad that she's loving her class, just wish it was a full day instead of only 2-1/2 hours. E finally says his own name when you ask him...so cute, comes out more like ICK than Eric but we know what he's after. He is velcroed on to my left hip most of the time now...I guess he realized that he's not the baby anymore...oh w

If you didn't guess or know, Courtney finally made her arrival. She came at 1:10am October 25th. She was by far the smallest of my babies as well as the earliest, both in days and time of day. She weighed in at 7lbs 3oz, 20 inches long. Arrival was early by seven days and I'm not bitching at all since she came with no assistance of drugs. They kept stabbing me but couldn't fnd the spot for the epi. As for the rest, Peter is back at work this week so we're on our own. Yesterday was easy as I hijacked my mom for the day cause it was rainy and icky so I made her stay home with E and C so I could take G to school. Thank goodness she lives down the street and I can usually pressure her into coming up and sitting here while I get things done, even if it is just showering in peace......LOL! K, I know you're waiting, so here she is, the littlest member of our family...Baby Courtney!!! Isn't she just adorable!!! And yes as far as I'm concerned, she is smiling......

I'm still here. It's 12:30 am and I sit here on my sofa waiting for C to get out...... LOL !!! I've done the super HUGE dinner, didn't work, did the spicy food, didn't work, walk till I want to fall on my face, nope again... She's so active that she keeps me awake. I keep telling her that if she gets out, she'll have a TON more room to move around in...well maybe not a ton since I can't get G and E out of my bed, but she'll have more anyway. Other stuff...I was at my LSS on Sunday for our monthly Stampapalooza . This month our "theme" was fall. I half cheated and did a card that I've had floating in my head forever now. As usual I sat there and whipped out my cards as everyone else was chatting and having coffee. Sigh......like it's gonna get any better with a third tossed into the mix? I'll snap some shots of the card I did as well as some of the other ladies and credit those who made them of course. It's the least

I am a crafter !!! LOL !!! This is one of two designs for Christmas. The cardstock is Whisper White, Purely Pomegranate, Wild Wasabi and Pretty in Pink. Stamp set is from the Holiday Mini and the inks are Wild Wasabi and Purely Pomegranate again. I love the look of the envelope to match so I stamped on the one side and I used the tiny little green flower on the back of the envelope too just for a more uniform look. I used the ticket corner punch that I finally got after lusting after it FOREVER!!!!! I'm happy I have it now cause I just love the way it finishes the corners in a way that sticks out more to me than rounding with the corner rounder. The next one is also fun for me, used two different colours of Blue ink, both from the new In Colours, Soft Sky and Bayou Blue. The cardstock is Whisper White and Soft Sky. Again I used the same stamps on the envelope. This set is Snowflake Spot from the regular catty. I'm waiting on an order of glitter so once it arrives, I'l

New cards to share with you...BUT it has been rainy and gloomy all day and I can't get a good shot of any of them...... ARGH !!!!! There's always a catch huh? One is a thanksgiving card that I made for my mil, but then decided to keep instead (BAD DIL !) and two different Christmas designs.... OMG I'm having a blast! I was at my bestests house yesterday delivering some stuff for her that she ordered and I got to play with her Simply Sent - Simple Delights kit, OMG I LOVE LOVE LOVE these kits! So nice to sit down and whip out a card in five minutes with no cutting involved. Read instructions, gather pre-cut materials, stamp then assemble! Goodness knows I will be getting more of these as gifts and maybe even door prizes. I'll also pimp them for the starter cardmaker . Can't go wrong when it's all already assembled for ya. K, tomorrow for sure come rain or shine, I'll get the pics taken and the cards uploaded with deets on the sets and colours. I P

Craft that is....... LOL !!! I make cards when I've got time, but then I give them out before I can snap shots of them........BAD ME!!! My problem is that I've only got like 20 minutes to make that thank you card for the teacher then I run down and hand it over and on my way back I smack myself in shame that yet again I've forgotten to take a pic and post it up. Maybe today, when I'm done baking my pumpkin pie from scratch, I'll make some stuff up and actually take some pictures of them, if not, I'll fall back on some older stuff, like from the Regional's and stuff that I've made for the swaps at Cherished. On a side note, from what I've seen online, WCMD #2 was a success. Most people who joined in the fun had a ton of it. Maybe next year when I'm not so hugely pregnant and my Stampin ' Up! business is up off the ground floor. K, Ta for now, gotta start getting the peel off the cooling pumpkin in my oven.

Sorry for the lack of crafting pics....LOL!! I went to the Stampin' Up Hamilton Regional's on Saturday...fun yet boring at the same time. I loved the make and takes, loved the stamp set they "gave" us, loved the displays but was kind of nodding off during some of the speeches. I also sat down with my first un-official workshop hostess on Saturday and finished the design of her workshop. All colours are ordered and the layouts of the cards are marked etc. I'll try to get the samples made up so I can see what I'm working with. I also have placed my first four orders that weren't mine! LOL!!! My ladies, Dani, Nicky, Emily and Sarah all ordered something from me...weeeeeeeeee! See it's not just about me! Now on the the bad news. Peter is an ass. I knew that, have known that for years but got lulled into a false sense of change from him. Well I'm back on solid ground now and I promise I won't forget again. Oh yah, basement is half drywalle

I'm working on it, I promise. I've been sorting and organizing and dreaming but as of yet, not so much crafting. I'm gonna start doing the daily challenges over on Splitcoast Stampers. That will defunk me for sure. On a side note, Peter did his usual and tried to tear me down again, in not so many words saying I'm not smart enough to do this for real...I choose to ignore him now. It pains me because I honestly do love him to death, but I'm so dang tired of being told I'm not good enough for whatever the current situation is. Blah and poo poo on you buddy. I'll prove him wrong and laugh at him while my best friend and I are sitting on the balcony on the cruise I plan on winning...... I'll come back and post again after Geebs is at school and I've had a chance to stamp and photo.

hahaha, not my basement, not the tree but the Stampin' Up. It is scheduled to be delivered tomorrow Monday the 10th. I am so dang excited I feel like I'm gonna pee myself more than I already do being 7 months pregnant........LOL!!! I started a stampalogue today of my stamps from Stampin' Up so I can bring it with me to shows and have potential hostesses pick their stamps sets for me to design their workshop around. Not sure if I need to do this, but I think it would be nice to have a Hostess more involved in the "planning". Now if only I knew how to do a workshop since I've never been to one..........ROFLMAO!!! Did mention that my upline is married to one of my childhood friends? This is a person who I've thought about all the time growing up cause he was such a good guy and so influential in my life...to have found him and his beautiful family...beside myself with joy! Not only is he back in my life, but they live close by and I can be at his office in MI

They have this promo right now until the end of September where if you sign up as a demo, you get an entire family of ink pads free........80 bucks worth..... Yup, you guessed it, I've jumped on the bandwagon. I talked it over with Peter and he said to go for it since it would be something I could do from home and not leave him with the kids......LOL!! Paperwork was mailed off yesterday so now I'm freakishly checking my email a billion times a day waiting for word that they have it all and I can go play in the Demo side of the site... Hopefully this will also mean that you'll be seeing more crafts in Carol's Crafty Corner.....LOL!

God I'm so over being pregnant...this one is super active too, constantly kicking, rolling, hitting, stretching etc. I suppose I should be happy cause it means she's very healthy...but boy what a sleep killer! All in all though, not bad this time around. It's probably because I'm done, no if's and's or but's . Fixed is fixed. And Courtney will have a great story to tell everyone who's interested.. LOL !! Mom is still healing, oh yah , she fell off her bicycle and broke her hip. Pins and plates and she's on the mend. Babysitting a 65 year old woman is really boring and time consuming. I've done as much as I can being so hugely bloated with baby and so lacking in energy...oh well.... I think it's time to share some of my crafts too......A couple things I made lately for my nephew and for my mom of course. I'll try to get more done and pics taken. I'm also debating becoming a Stampin Up demo. Right now the signing bonus is hard to pas

I have windows.... Yes, you read that correctly, I have windows. Now I bet you're thinking, wth is this chick talking about, everyone has windows unless you're in jail and even there....LOL! My wonderful contractor (BFF's Hubb) took out all the antique windows in my basement and reframed them. The new ones were ready yesterday so he put them all in. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! It's so nice to see outside again instead of just sheets of plywood. The only downside is no more naked laundry days...LOL!! Gone are the few weeks that I could strip off what I was wearing and toss it into the laundry then run like the dickens up to the bedroom to get something else on. I promise myself I'll get some pics taken and uploaded. I'll also start taking photos of my cards and get them up here too. I just got a ton of new stamps and am dying to use them, but I need my basement done before I can really have fun........nasty circle huh? Here is a pic of my beautiful birthday boy, he just

So a little while back, my mom bought herself a new toy, an electric bicycle...enough said right? NO............she busted her hip last week, had pins put in blah blah blah....all the while still arguing with her "tenants" downstairs. So I'm basically captive here as I'm the close one and nobody else can help her out, pick her up take her here, get her groceries, make her food..etc. Today I go down in a ripe mood already cause I'm tired and not sleeping again, find the dogs OUT the lattice to keep them in pushed over.........go downstairs to ask " geez how did that happen?" and start yet another war. WTF ? Girl you're 20something, grow up and act like it. I locked the back yard cause they keep taking my mom's bike(pedal one) without asking so they childishly push over the lattice so I have to spend an hour chasing the dang dogs around the area trying to get them back inside the house? WHATEVER! Get your stuff and get out now. I'm done

So I have this HUGE tree in my backyard, mostly dead and my neighbour has been on my butt for at least two years about it. He's a freak and all worried about it coming down and crushing his house...yah it's big but it ain't big enough to reach his house....sigh... I start calling around for peeps to come in and quote us on getting the monster removed so I can shut his yap up and they all start telling me that I need a PERMIT TO REMOVE MY OWN DAMN TREE!! Are you kidding me? I mean if I need to pay the city 200 bucks to get permission, they can take it down! GAH! I mean I pay house insurance and I've checked, that will cover any damage the tree makes coming down so realistically..... Okay, off my beatup soapbox, I'll try to take some pics of my stuff and the basement and get posting with the pics......

I know it's been a bit, we had a little blowout, the aftermath wasn't nice and since then I've been crazy busy. Running around here and there and doing this and that. Our basement is coming along, still waiting for the eaves etc to get done so that Bo can frame the driveway side of the basement, no point in doing it if the rain pours inside. Should be done soon. He's completely framed in my "laundry/furnace" room, I even have greenbat up! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! He said drywall will go up today and he'll finish the installation of my washer and dryer and then I'll no longer have to lug my stuff up to his house to clean.....LOL!!! I'm getting large now, kicks more often which makes me happy, one of my good friends just lost her baby in utero at 13.5 weeks, I can't even begin to imagine. That gave me nightmares for a bit, but then the baby started kicking me again...... Yes I'll get some pics of the basement and my belly to post. In other ne

As it hits the fan is never easy. We had a nasty blow out on Saturday evening. I'm still trying to recover. My whole body is achy from tension. On the up swing, my house is cleaner now that there isn't so much stuff in it...sigh...

I'm home from my monthly appointment. All is well, my baby is doing freakin great! Good strong heartbeat, measuring large but that's no shocker based on my other two, all the bloodwork and the NT scan came back perfect. Hopefully I'll stop having nightmares now? They usually involve something horrid happening to this baby in utero. I think maybe it's my guilt about this one not being planned. We waited two years almost for Gillian, with Eric he was extremely wanted but a year early, this one, while an amazing story of conception/survival, I wonder how it will feel knowing that we were taking all possible measures to avoid another baby. I'll love this one as much if not more than my others, but still, how will it feel? Anyway, I'm off to have a nap hopefully, I'm just so burnt out from last weeks running around and all the work in my home.....I'll take advantage of the time away from G & E. Next appointment with the doc, June 20th.

LOL!!! Started at 8 on the nose this morning. I currently have a bunch of hot young men out in my laundry room installing the tankless waterheater...mmmmmmmmmmmm....... Bo is gonna come back this afternoon as well, not sure what time but I need to ditch the kids so I can get some stuff done again today. Don't wanna leave with the hotties in the house so I think I'll call my mom and make her take them...truth? Just cause I don't wanna miss the hotties......LOL!!!! Okay done reporting for now, will snap a pic of the heater after it's all done...PRETTY!!!!!

Well I'm at sixteen weeks and was sitting here this morning sitting down drinking my first morning coffee and BAM! Kicked from the inside!!! I know it's been kicking for a while now but jeepers! I could not only feel it but I saw my belly move too! Gillian was sitting right next to me and laughed so hard.... I have to get some belly shots for the book that will need to be done for this one. Just think only four more weeks and I'll be half way AND probably know what it is...WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! On to the reno. I've got one partial wall downstairs...we have a problem with the windows on the one side and all the water comes rushing in. Need that fixed first before we can do much more. I've gotten the tankless water heater coming in tomorrow and I can't flippin wait! It's only about a foot deep and maybe a foot and a half long and it heats five gallons of water per minute! GAH!! Never to run out of hot water again!!!!!! All the garbage is gone from my ba

Demo is underway and OMG I can't see my backyard anymore! The bin didn't show on the weekend so they tossed all the garbage on the back lawn. I'll head outside in a bit and take some during shots so that everyone can feel my pain. Everyone? Does anyone other than me even read this? LOL!!! Monday morning and the 7th of May, soon we go to the school to meet with the Teacher, excited and sad at the same time. I find myself just watching Gillian play lately and wonder where she came from. I mean I know she's my baby but she's just so big and it's so unreal still that I have a four year old.......gah what is gonna run through my head in another decade? What's up for this week, nothing that I know of, Bo said he's gonna try for three days a week at my house so we can get the ball rolling and get us downstairs before the new baby comes, that would be wonderful cause I can't see myself moving junk downstairs with a new baby in arms, not that it will be fun w

LOL!! Demo hasn't even begun and yet here I am waiting and counting today as day one. The junk guys are coming over today and clearing out the basement and I'll toss in the front porch while they're here. Financing comes in Friday....YIPPEEEEEEE!!!! At this point I'm so damn motivated that I didn't even check through any boxes downstairs. I figure if I haven't needed it in the past five years I honestly don't need it now. Clean sweep is paying off! I've also settled myself down on the shopping front too. Slow it down and make informed choices and make sure we "need" it before I get it rather than just "OOOOOOOOH, I want that", maybe I'm finally growing up? GASP! Other than that, I'm just plumb tired. Supposed to be better by now, second trimester should be the energy trimester but nope, not yet. Kids are at the sitters so hopefully I'll get a quick nap in before I Have to go and get them back. Why oh why can't

In the matter of minutes I went from seven something weeks to 12! I like that! Too bad the rest of it won't go that fast.....sigh.... The baby was swimming and kicking and waving at me during the ultrasound. Made me smile so much. Little heart was beating up a storm too. It's real. There is really a little one in there. I'm finally getting excited now. I wrote a letter to the baby this morning, I'll scrapbook it later with the pictures of the pee stick that I had to take..LOL. That should be a nice keepsake for the baby. I also went shopping today and got myself a cuttlebug and some embossing folders. I know I didn't need it and probably shouldn't have gotten it, but I deserve something nice every now and again, afterall I was at the store and only spent 3 dollars over my 25 dollar gift certificate and wouldn't have done that if it wasn't a stampapalooza day...ROFLMAO!!! Justify justify justify. Okay, off I go to get some more things done befor

Finally got hold of the OB/GYN who did the tubal to book the ultrasound for dating...apparently I had one booked already on the 3rd of April......she told Peter.......ha ha ha....she said it's just like giving messages to her husband, they go into the great unheard. She didn't call me back with a new one, but at least I have her number and can now call and harrass all I want too. Here are my current monsters...see why I'm keeping this one?

Easter's over and everyone I need to tell now knows. Now I can be a sloth all I want and use my "but I'm pregnant" excuse.....LOL Unfortunately I'm so damn restless that I'm itching to get out of my house...sigh...need a second car, wait a second van would be better so daddy could (ha ha ha) take the kids out too...

That's approxamately where I am. Only six weeks in and already I'm done. I'm done with the all day queezy , sick of the all day tired and sick of all the horrid thoughts that go through your head. My sitter just told me that her good friends daughter just gave birth to a still born child. Was at the doctors on Monday, baby was fine and strong, Tuesday night, no movement, Wednesday morning in to the hospital and inducing labour, dead baby. OMG I would die myself. What makes a child in utero die at nine months? With only days left to go, what could possibly be wrong with the baby that all of a sudden caused it to pass? Breaks my heart to even consider it. Wouldn't that be my luck? To go through the torture of an unexpected pregnancy that seems to be destined to be (survived the pill and the tubal) only to have it expire so close to the end of the road....shudder to even consider.... Okay enough of the morbid thoughts...six weeks, that means about 13 to go before

So today I go to my sleep specialist. An hour to get there on the bus, an hour and a half back, 2.75 each way...all for him to say,well, there's nothing else I can recommend for you right now. You're welcome to come back after your pregnancy.... Why is it that doctors think you have nothing better to do than waste the day on them? I'm still waiting for a good nights sleep, maybe one day I'll get one.

That there is never enough? Never enough time in the day to do all that needs to be done, never enough food in the fridge, never enough money in the bank... Why is it that right now I would kill for someone to come over and take my kids for a couple days so I could possibly find some more time and definitely more sleep. I need some stuff done around here, we got a quote done for the windows and geez that's gonna be a pretty penny...worth it in the long run but gah who has that sitting in the bank waiting for someone to spend? Still need to do the basement too, will have peeps doing that for us but will still need to pay the peeps too. Nothing is free. I'm just thankful that my peeps are friends and will do an awesome job, seen their work and have complete faith that things will be done right and done excellent. Now where is that lotto ticket with the winning numbers???

Well we survived the trip to Florida and all points in between. Met with some longtime friends that I've never met face to face before and that was awesome. Got there and back in one piece and with mom none the wiser about number 3 hiding. Now that we're set on this path, I'm freaking out. I can barely keep up with the two that I have without adding another to the mix. Not to mention the lack of space in our house...oh well, we'll have to make it work one way or another. Home and in desperate need of some space and some creativity, I need to make 12 cards for Saturday with either the Mothers Day theme or with a specific stamp set. I'll do the stamp set since I have those already....LOL Post when they're done of course.

My online friends know, and they're just as shocked as I am. Now for the couple of you who think it's funny to wish twins on my fat ass....I'll get you! I was unable to sleep last night and was laying there thinking up names, early I know. Allison Victoria was the front runner last time had E been a she...I like Nathan but Peter doesn't...LOL~ We have LOTS of time to decide. I'm getting more used to the idea of being a mom of three. Totally not looking forward to morning sickness again, but I think I can handle it. Now if only I can get off my ass and finish my son's blanket and start on the new one...

Well we've decided to keep this bugger. I guess there must be an important reason for this one to be here concidering the way we found it. I just hope that everything else goes as fast, already not looking forward to 40 weeks, but I can do it considering that I KNOW this one is my last. Maybe we should call it Mira if it's a girl.......ROFLMAO!

So I had my surgery yesterday. It was a surprise for sure. The doc's office called me on Monday and said can you do Friday? I said sure! Get it out of the way and then no more BCP or Condoms (EWWWWWWWWWWWWW). Get there yesterday morning and all goes well, they put me under and snip snip I'm an it...LOL!! Only thing is when they wake me up from the surgery they say, Oh by the way, you're pregnant.............WHAT?????? PARDON????? Um, I'm here so this shit wouldn't happen anymore........... Get home still in a state of shock and patiently wait for Peter to get here. We sit and talk and talk....he really gave me NOTHING in the way of directions...and gave me NOTHING at all for just having had major surgery and finding out about the biggest fricken suprise in my life...... Finally right before bed, he said to me that he would be with me 100% no matter which way I swing. That actually helped out a lot. Just knowing that he wouldn't hold it against me if I do choose

Stress call this morning at 4:30. I flipped and flopped like a fish out of water trying to get back to sleep. Finally gave up around 5 and came down and put the coffee on. Why wake the monkeys if I don't have to right? Did some quiet chores and then sat and knitted some more of my scarf. Boring, but enjoyable. Ran around with mom again today doing all kinds of last minute Florida stuff. Get the bottled water for the drive, get the gifts for the girls, etc. Fun but so exhausting when already tired. Such is life, it's Thursday, Sunday the times goes forward and I loose more sleep...LOL!! Oh well we're within a week of warm sun and possible tans....WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Gah I love my Bella's! Poor woman emailed me in a panic last night cause some freaks were slagging her babies on the SCS board. I mean, if you don't like it, fine you don't have to, but why oh why would you go online and say, "I don't like peas, anyone with me?" Cause that is basically what it boils down to. Trying to start trouble with the Bellajunkies that's for sure. I think Em needs to do a junkfoodbella (bag of chips or bowl of icecream) a beachbum bella (on a loungechair) and definately the fattiebellas in all their different forms. The lovely lady is known as Cosmobella. The watermark drink is by Penny Black and the saying is by Inky Antics. I know there aren't any fans of my blog, but I'll keep on posting anyway. Makes me feel better....LOL

It's soooooooooooo cold today that my furnace hasn't stopped working. It's -23 BEFORE the wind chill. BRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! And yes I had to go out today with BOTH kids in tow. Some moron actually asked me if it was cold outside while looking at my kids frozen faces and my beet red hands. Dorks... Anyway, I've done the tests, booked the appointment and am set to get fixed. I was a little down last night, said so to Peter and was given a shock that first, he didn't remember my making the appointment and second that he said he would do it and get it reversed if we change our minds. And here I thought he was dead set on no more. Oh well. We can't have anymore in this house anyway. Two bedrooms doesn't cut it for three kids...LOL!! Okay, I'm back to the blankets for a while. Thank goodness Florida is just over a week away.......PHEW!!!!!

I figure I should have at least one craft on this here blog... Meet Imeldabella. She is designed by one of the most talented women I've ever been fortunate to meet. http://www.stampingbella.com Emily is sooooooooo amazing that it's gross. Check out her blog too. Wicked funny. Anyway, she's stamped on Emily's special paper, coloured with prisma's and blended with Bella Spirits and mounted on DCWV patterened paper and cardstock. MWAH!!! Love ya Em!

No kids and all I do is sleep.......guess I'm really tired huh? I did manage to get out and get some groceries for the house and a ton of stuff to take down to Florida, snacky stuff for the ride and canned goods for the hotel. Yes we have a microwave...LOL! Hub and I went to see Zodiac last night. Great flick and very enjoyable to have a night out with my man and no monkies messing around. Even nicer to come home to absolute silence and know that it's gonna stay that way for half a day more at least. PHEW!!! Thanks again mom. Count down is 10 days now....can't fricken WAIT!

The kids are away...LOL Suckered my mom into taking the monsters up to my sisters for the night. Hopefully I can get Peter off his ass and make him take me out for some fun tonight, I'm so sick of sitting in and doing nothing with our free time. The countdown has begun, less than two weeks now and I'll be soaking up the sun in Fla...THANK GOODNESS! If only I could pay someone to take my monsters for me..........LOL

The dream that is. I had this ticket and was using the power of positive thinking to make myself a winner....well apparently I wasn't positive enough cause I didn't win shit. Oh well, maybe next time (yah right) I got yet another earful last night about how I'm so hypocritical and such a liar, good thing I know myself enough to shake that off since I get it all the flippin time...sigh....and here I thought things were looking up finally. Guess I was mistaken. I think I'll have a sitdown with him tonight and try to explain why he's hurting more than helping to bring up stuff that happened 10 years ago and toss it in my face as who I am instead of who I was... Wish me luck.......LOL!!!

Okay, I took some time off blogging to attempt to get my life in order. Not working so here I sit at the computer again. I had round two of the sleep study on Sunday night, what a waste of time if you ask me. They put me near a snorer and a night terrors guy and the chick had the nerve to say "you didn't sleep well last night" DUH! Dude woke me up twice screaming and snorer kept me from falling asleep each time..........GAH! I've been picking up stuff off and on for my trip down to Florida. I think I would be a whole lot more excited if I was going with my hub or with a friend rather than my mom again. As much as I love my mom, sometimes I just wanna be a goof and not be the responsible daughter. I've mapped out my route so that I can hook up with a couple friends on the way down so that makes me more excited, can't wait to meet B & J in WV and all the A's in SC. I'll make sure to pick up an extra memory card so that I can snap to my hearts

I've taken a couple days off to go and hang with my bestest again. I took her to the airport so she can visit with another friend and that in itself is yet another adventure. Planning on getting up and heading out at 8, we wake to find SNOW SNOW SNOW everywhere and I'm talking heavy wet snow. Roads are backed up and just wrong so we take back streets most of the way to the falls. Finally arriving with NO time to spare, we got a customs lane that had (ready for the miracle?) NO CARS in it(!!!) we sped through and flew to the airport. Poor girl had to crash the security line then run full tilt through the airport with her shoes in her hands while they're paging her over the intercom to come to the departing plane.......LOL!!! She made it with minutes to spare and was off. I on the other hand, enjoyed my half day of shopping with only one child in tow and it being the one who doesn't speak much made it even more enjoyable...(ahhhhhhhh Target) After spending way too m

I'm out of the dog house, sort of....... I've been forgiven by the friend who was pissed, but if my mom finds out, I'm dead again...LOL!!! I'm off to a friends house tomorrow so I can take her to the buffalo airport so she can visit another friend who lives farther away from us. I'm using the excuse to go shopping again..shocking I know....LOL!!! Okay, back to packing after my busy day of running around for doctors appointments...sigh...it never ends does it?

Do you remember that game? I do cause I'm doing it now. One friend whom I adore says sure, not a problem if you wanna talk to my ex and figure out her head. ONLY when I do, I'm suddenly shunned as the enemy. Why do grow adults behave in such a childish manor? I'm trying to figure out a middle ground for a little girl. I have nothing invested other than that. Couldn't care if they reunite or don't. I just want that little girl to be happy and healthy. Next time someone says "Sure it won't bother me..." don't listen to them, they're lying. 13 years of friendship down the shitter cause I am trying to be impartial.........

Okay, I found a pic that I like of my new ink...The butterfly is for rebirth and the flower is a zinnea which stands for thoughts of abscent friends. It's my therapy for loosing my dad and the woman who was like a mom to me, my aunt Betty. She taught me so much in my life that I just can't imagine what it would have been without her as a positive force. She is why I am who I am after surviving my childhood. Crafty critters UNITE! I haven't decided on ink #3 yet, but I'm sure I'll find one soon and start getting itchy again... Other than that, I've gotten better and being frustrated almost all the time, but that seems to be my life as of late. Never enough time to do anything and can't ask for help...whatever. Enjoy the ink, I know I sure as hell do!

Got the new ink and I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! Apparently I love the pain too...lol! My bestest came with me and got ink of her own and was in agony due to the fact that hers was on her back over the spine. It's stunning though... Now I gotta go and look up more for tattoo #3..........WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Okay, I survived year three, survived Peter picking up the new car and going to darts and survived digging out of this freak storm. We've done the snow twice today and hopefully that's it cause I don't wanna go out again. I don't mind doing the chore, but my back protests the exercise. Too old for Canadian winters anymore. I don't build snowmen, snowforts or make snow angels. TOO COLD! I'm hoping that the sun today will melt some off and the rest will slowly go away over night so that the drive to Oakville tomorrow for ink...I'll have to post a pic of the work after it's done. Will be beautiful if they can do half of what I think they can do.

Today is year three. For some reason instead of getting easier it's getting harder. I bawled today like I haven't since he died. Absolute ugly crying, snot, tears and all. I feel somewhat better but I'm still angry. Angry that he did that to himself, angry that I didn't forgive him sooner, angry that he wasn't a better dad or I a better daughter, and beyond angry that he never got to meet my son. Will I ever feel better? Who knows. Will it ever get easier? Maybe, hopefully.... I'm getting a new tattoo on Thursday to remind myself of him and others that aren't here with me... I really do miss you dad, and I'm not as strong as I put it out there to be.

I'm sure this will be boring for most, but I'm positive that the purging of thoughts and crap will help me out in the long run.....